Gathering of pearls

The day before the first day of school, I was leaving my house. I said goodbye to all my friends from my hometown and get in the car. I sobbed in the car because I couldn't believe that I'll live in the college dorm by my self without my friends. I was worrying about that will I make new friends at the college. I'm not outgoing person front of lots of people but I think I'm loud front of my friends. Whatever, I was exciting to be college student. I thought college students can do lots of new things. Off course, I will study at beautiful campus, make some friends, going to party and make a boyfriend. When I get at college, I was nervous because I'll see my new schoolmates. I looked at me and make sure I'm looking good because first impression is important.

September
September 1
After I arrived at college, I had orientation. We separated some groups and teachers introduced us about the college. I thought this is chance to make friend so I was nervous but I tried to talk to my new classmates. I tried to talk to someone but I couldn't because I don't know anyone and it was hard for me to talk to people who don't know about me at all. I feel so lonely, other people were taking each other but I couldn't hear them clearly because I was nervous. When I trying to talk to someone, a girl started to talked me. Her name is Ellen, she told me that her roommate wasn't here yet. I thought she is really outgoing, she introduced by her self lots of things and few things were she should tell people who she meet first time. But anyway, she is really funny girl so I wanted to be her friend and I became her fiend. I relieved that I could make new friends at the college and at the night, I felt sleep really early because I think I was really tired because everything was new for me.

September 2
Next day I went to downtown with Ellen and Sookan. Sookan is my new friend too and she is Ellen's roommate. Ellen introduced me about Sookan, Sookan is really nice girl, she seemed like little bit shy but she is good at English. So we became friend. Anyway, we went to downtown and bought bed cover, curtains, blanket. When we were shopping Sookan's face wasn't happy, Ellen told her to buy same thing because they were roommate but I think Sookan didn't want to do it because she doesn't  have enough money. Ellen is nice girl but she doesn't care deeply about others, I could tell to Ellen that she doesn't want to do it but I was scared about Ellen got mad at me and she started to hates me so I could do it. I was feel sorry for Sookan and really Flastlated about how I was bad person.

September 4
All classes had been started, all classes weren't hard for me because study is my best part and I came here because of studying. After I went to shopping with Ellen and Sookan, I couldn't stop thinking about Sookan, i was thinking about is she doing alright and I could understand how hard is studying in English for not native English speaker because my friend from my hometown told me that. I don't see Sookan at the dinning hall a lot and I had one same class with her and she always stay there after class for taking a note. One day, after school, I went to library to talk to Sookan, I knew she is there because she always there after school. I asked Sookan to help her, I said, "Hi Sookan, if you need some help about study, I always can help you so feel free to ask me some questions. I like this subject so I could teach you if you wanted to. Sookan similed and said, " thank you so much, I'm really appreciate it. Can you teach me about this?" I was really glad that she asked me a question because she is my friend but I was scared that she think I'm her friend. Whatever I could get close with her, so I was really happy at the day.

September 28
I went back to my house on last weekend of September. I met my family and friends. I told them about my new friends and school. My family was happy to hear about it because I think they were worrying about relationships with other friends at college. My personality is not outgoing so they cared about I could make friends or not. Anyway it was only two days break but I could see my family and friends so I had great break.

October
October 5
I always think I want to have some job. I think my family is not poor and my parents give me enough money to buy something. But I want to earn my own money. So I asked Sookan any good jobs and Sookan told me the job at dinning hall. I asked to school that I want to do the job and they accept my request. I started to work at there, it was hard for me and I couldn't believe Sookan does this job and study hard in one day.

October 10
I'm loving my new college life, I think I became more outgoing than before. In weekend, Ellen brought me to a party in downtown and lots of college students were there. It was really fun, I drank little, people played music loud and everyone were dancing. Ellen introduced me one guy who name is John. He is great guy, he is from Ellen's hometown and he is going to college in Connecticut. I talked him about school, my hometown and other things too. He listen me all of time and he is so kind. When we going to back to college, he told me he is going to call me soon. I was happy because it was first time I talked to guy really close. I appreciated to Ellen that she introduced him to me.

October 15
One day, my mom and dad called me from home. I was surprised because I called them everytime. I knew they will talk about someone good because their voice was low and when I talked about college life thry didn't care. They started to talked about my grade. My grade was going to down a little. They asked me why is it going to down and I explained all classes being hard little. But they didn't believed me because they knew I'm going to party or hangout with friends and don't study as I did before. They told me to study as before but I couldn't understand because my grade is not bad, and I wanted to enjoy my college life as other students do.

October 27
I talked to my friends about what did my parents say to me. Ellen said to me that I'm right because I'm college students and I have to enjoy it. But Sookan told me that she doesn't know because she is really busy and she didn't enjoy her college life as Ellen. I was thinking about it whole day and I think they both right. I think I could enjoy my college life but I have to study too for my future.

November
November 6
It was freshman election week, I was little nervous because I wanted to someone votes for me at something. Ellen nominated for the dance committee.i expected it because she is most outgoing person in freshman. So it didn't surprised me and I listened her speech. Her words were really strong too. Then Sookan nominated for student council but she declined it. The election ended, my name didn't call. I was shocked because I want to nominate fro something but I understand why students didn't vote to me because I don't have any strong thing as Ellen and Sookan. Ellen is popular and outgoing, Sookan is hard worker but I'm normal student. At the night I was thinking about what things could be my strong point.

November 13
I'm keep touching with John from the party. When I'm staying with John, I can relax and I can talk about everything to him. He is important for me right now, I don't understand why I can tell him everything because I'm not even dating with him. I think I want to date with him, I think I like him. It was weird feel, I never like person before.

November 25
On thanksgiving, I went to my house. My whole family was there, we had great dinner and we talked about lots of thing. After the dinner, I said sorry to my parents because I was yelled at them when they got me. Also I told them that I will study as I did before and I will enjoy my college life too. At the night, I could wait till go back to college because I want to study at there hard again and I want to enjoy my college life again too.

November 30
At the night that I came back to college from my house, I meet my friends and I talked about my thanksgiving break to Ellen, Sookan and Marci. They talked about their thanksgiving too. I was happy to see them again. Now, I didn't know why but I feel really close with them. I think it because I'm living with them and we stay together long time. I can talk about everything about me.

December
December 1
It's already December, I couldn't believe I'm doing everything without my family. I learned how my family helped me a lot when I at my home. Anyway, first weekend in December, I met John on Sunday. I had so much homework to do so I finished everything on Saturday. He came to my college and we went around New York. It was great time for me, I was tired because I did my all home work yesterday but I could meet John so my feel was so fresh. For dinner, we went to a nice restaurant then he drove me to college after that. When I say bye to him, he hugged me and asked me to date with him. I couldn't realize what he just said. Off course I said yes and I hugged him long time.

December 18
I heard Sookan fainted in bathroom. I was worrying about her so much. I wanted to go see her but Sister agreed didn't let me and she tell me to go home. So I told Sister Reed to tell Sookan that I was worrying about her and tell her to call me when her feel get better. Then my parents came to pick me up so I went to my house but less of the day, I was thinking about Sookan.

December 21
One day, I went to go to mailbox to pick up my letters. When I go into the room, I saw Sookan is standing there and crying. I was really confusing and I was think what should I say to her. She was looking a letter and it was Korean so I realized the letter is from her family. Then Sookan noticed that I was standing behind her. I asked her, "are you okay? Is something bad happen at home?" She answered, "no, I'm good, nothing happened at home. But I just missed my mother, and feel sorry that I'm not staying with her in korea." She wiped her tears and wait till I got my letters. We walked to the dorms together. She told me why she feel sorry for her mother and how much she misses her mother. I tried to be her feeling, if I didn't see my mother 4 months, I think I'll miss her so much too. But I couldn't say anything to Sookan because I never in the situation soI thought  if I said something to her, she would think I don't understand her feel. So I just listened her opinion and I said only few things. After I talked to her, I was thinking that I was right or I should say something to her.

December 25
On Christmas, Sookan and Marci invited me to Christmas party at the dorm. I was exciting because Sookan told me that she will make some Korean food. I never tried it before but I wanted to know what does Sookan eat in Korea. At the party, there are Ellen, Bennetts family, sister Reed and sister Casey. I went inside of the dorm and I already smelled the Korean food. The smell was so good. I was hungry and wanted to meet them so I run to the kitchen. When everyone get there, we started the party. We ate Korean food name is Bulgogi. The smell was awesome and it is delicious too. I said thank you to Sookan and Marci. When we were having dinner, I felt so warm because I was thinking about the beginning of the year and I was lonely and I was worrying about I can make friends or not. Whatever, I have friends right now, it makes me feel better.

January

January 1
I woke up and I realized day is beginning of this year. I lay on my bed and thinking about what am I going to do this year and what is my goal of this year. I decided I'll study more hard and next election, I'll nominate for something. I felt really clear because I have new goal and I could wait to complete my goal. I got up and go downstairs then say good morning to my parents. I think my new year starts pretty well.

January 6
I came back to school. Nothing scary anymore because I know what things do I have to do and I have great friends. Sookan, Marci, Ellen were already at the dorm. I hugged them long time. During I hugging them, I was thinking that I have great life because of my friends. We went to my room and when I was unpacking, they were sitting in my bed and we talked about our break. I was laughing with my friends and I thought again that I'm the luckiest person in the world because I have great friends. I was so happy to see them again.

January 20
I was working at the dinning hall with Sookan at the night. Ellen run to the dinning, Sookan and I were so surprised. We asked, "what happened Ellen?" she told us that she engaged with Kyle. It surprised me more. I said, "congratulation!" But in my mind, I was worrying about her and her family. She is still freshman of college so I thought engage is too early. Sookan was thinking same thing as me so we told that to her, but she didn't care. I was agree with Sookan, we said it because we love Ellen and we wanted Ellen's life is going to be good. I was frustrating because she thought we said it because we hate Ellen. She doesn't  know how people worry about her. After she told everyone that she engaged, everyone was celebrating but it was so frustrated for me so I finished my work and went to my room.